Ok.When i woke up this morning, i decided to be kind and forgiving.
I decided to forgive my roommate who almost burnt my house down together with my precious Doraemons and all the other various irresponsible ppl.
Next. Todae i spent actually my whole afternoon watching channel u reruns. Sheesh.
I didnt know that jap show, Absolute boyfriend so niceeee..
ZOMG. THE ROBOT BOYFRIEND WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOTTTTT
I WANT HIMMMMM
I dont mind paying a 70 year installment....
BOO HOO.
Ok. i think im addicted to mahjong. my hand is itching after just one day ...
sob sob sob...
Friday, November 13, 2009
I hate people half assing things.
I wanted to write when my hormonal condition is balanced and not when my level of estrogen is running hay wired now.
But then right, time doesnt permit.
Im totally speechless.
Dateline for camp was 13. Todae. WOW.
Give me the updated timeline. Today. WOW
WHY? most probably becos i sent a threatening sms that if no replies are given by todae 8pm, i wont entertain them anymore.
its very annoying.
im leaving on sunday. homework not done. luggage not packed. my house nearly burnt down( will be explained later). proposal to be redone.
Its fustrating. To have asked the budget, number of people etc. THE SAME ENQUIRIES OVER AND OVER AGAIn
I swear. i asked. at least a week ago. And have been constantly pestering sandy/amanda for answers.
when they first send emails of proposal, i immediately sent an email asking. The next day, i went to sch and asked amanda.
No answer was given. How efficent.
Because the dateline stated was todae.
we met up yesterdae specially in school. to discuss the project. Jezreel skip a day's work. 30 bucks of salary was gone.
Never mind the fact tat only 2 ppl( yuting and jezreel) turn up. And the other 2 forget about it.
Todae. I received the updated timeline.
Not even a word of sorry was mentioned.
How nice. How kind.
No indoor cooking. Only a word dinner is there.
Only at night.
Do i received. SMSes regarding about my enquries.
Best of all.
Im waas directed to Miss Anisa.
HELLO?? THIS IS NOT SOME GOVERNMENT HOTLINE WHERE IT TAKES ME MORE THAN 3 WORKING DAYS TO PROCESS NOR DO I GET BEING DIRECTED AGAIN And AGAIN TO DIFFERENT PEOPLE
I dont get the fact, why out of the top 4, nicole doesnt know anything about the updated timeline.
And they seem to know nothing.
Forget the fact that they didnt even asked the sec3s what they like, put down a timeline and asking us to plan for the activities they throw at us.
Have you ever thought. of. 45dinner time.
Packed dinner? Indoor cooking? I have no damn idea.
Packed dinner for both days? Too spoiled you claim.
Indoor cooking? Not nutritious and time consuming.
WOW. WHat do we eat then? WIND AIR???
New proposal dateline. 16nov.
I hope you realised.
Im going overseas.
Does it ever went through any body 's mind that some of us are going overseas and you put us i.c???
How convenient.
NO one ever thought of our stand whereby we only had 30mins a day to check our mail, do our phone calls.
I cant be constantly spending my nights editing proposals.
Dedicated my 30mins might not even be enough.
guess, i dont have to call my parents nor do i nid to have personal time to do my personal stuff.
Its not just the camp food proposal.
About the open house proposal, its very annoying too.
3days before open house, sending an email to us, telling us to prepare baked rice.
Firstly, why do we not get informed before school ends? Secondly, i have to mass sms my patrol in short time - money consuming. Im USING PREPAID FOR GOODNESS SAKE!! MONEY DONT DROP NOR FALL FROM THE SKY!! )
thirdly, why do we not get informed about the open house. Why the sec3s never do discuss about stuff and we just get pushed tasks by the top4 and teachers.
HAVE ANYONE EVER THOUGHT OF US? HAVE ANYONE THOUGHT OF WHETHER WE FREAKING LIKE HAVING BAKED RICE OR KEBAK?
How would i know that none of my patrol would bring food. Yes. Blame it on me. BLAME IT ALL ON ME! When i took the easy way out since im not going to be there for my patrol cos i got cip and tuition, so i asked my sec2, to help to coordinate.
yes guess wat happen.
NO baked rice.
Dirty looks shoot in from all directions.
BAM!
I was even wearin the correct uniform on the day. And NIcole and sandy shot me weird looks even when i said it was for the cip.
How come THEYARE not sure of the proposal.
SHouldnt ALL SEC3s, at least the top4, knows what they are sending out ??? How come Huixian doesnt know anything about the open house. Not being the ic is not an excuse when the rest of the top 4 is uncontactable.
Its annoying me.
ALot.
Not only do these ppl are highly inefficent, they definitely lack management and organisation skills.
Why do Nicole is the one who sent out apology letters to the sec3s regarding inefficency of the camp proposal when She wasnt inform of things.
And why was the one, the one mainly doing coordinating things, sending out emails
------------------ Sandy
NOt apologising.
We had asked. over and over again. to sandy and amanda.
WE were given slipshot answers.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE. THE TOP 4 are only in charge of MISC Stuff and planning the dateline.
You guys are not even organising any activity other than drilling, flag raising, opening and closing speech of camp? And perhaps say. Arranging night duties .
Yes. Is that the best the 4 of you guys can do?
YOU DO not have to rack your brains to think of games that can be squeeze into an hour.
YOU DO not have to think of food suppliers.
The mininium you guys could do was to organise things properly, and not to send out tons of emails with different mails and all over the place?
THE MININIUM you guys could do was at least to get back to our enquries asap.
Im not expecting you guys to sit in front of the phone 24/7 daily . This is not 7-11 for hell sake.
YEs, i believe, im cursing. mildly up till now.
You want us to get together and plan out our proposals?
I am FLYING ON 15!!!
Timeline sent on 13night.
DONT I HAVE TO PACK MY LUGGAGE AND DO OTHER STUFF ON the 14??
I do have other things to clear.
Come on. Is this the best you can do?
And i dont believe why . And why. And why.
And Sandy is seriously annoying me to the max. Im reaching my limit. Ever since the Zoo incident, thanks to a failed study date attempt with X X X X X , becos SHE WANTS TO STUDY
HELLO> we alrdy agreed to the shuying house date long ago.
In wat way was this appropriate?
I just didnt want to worsen things at tat time.
She is plainly half assing things. And nothing gets done properly. We shall ignore temporarily about the subject on her studies, but she clearly cant manage her piorities well. You dont make a promise with your friends, whom are clearly very excited in going out, and dashing their hopes, on THE DAY ITSELF
Neither do you half ass your cca stuff. Leaving things dangling here and there.
Im getting super annoyed.
And yes. possibly after i posted this. and when i return from china, i see girls ,looking at me with their big black innocent eyes saying" what have i done wrong to deserve this" And then starts to cry pitifully.
GOsh. WE are the ones that are pitiful. WE are the ones that are like maids coming to clear up the mess each time the top 4 comes ringing their bells.
Im not complaining becos i think that i can do abetter job than the top 4s, but becos we have chose them as our leaders, to lead us , therefore they should do a better job or the next half year will turn out to be a very ugly half year.
The honeymoon period is over. WAKE UP!
And yes. to the part of why my house is nearly burnt.
firstly. at 7plus when i returned to my house, i happily put my netbook( new and loaned from school for the trip) I went to bedroom, took off my skirt, call my mum.
I went to the bathroom to bathe.
I switch on the kitchen lights.
I saw this weird noise that i previously dismissed as nearby construction works.
My stove was on. MY kettle was on the stove.
Yes. My kettle was boiling water in the house.
Where there was no one.
Obviously, i quickly turn off the stove. I didnt dare to touch the kettle. I got a weird feeling that it will be very very hot.
called my mum to tell her that i return to an empty home with a boiling kettle. then
I used a wet cloth to try to pry the bowl off the kettle lid since my lid's tip is gone.
Its stucked.
Meaning, the kettle was heated for a long time, causing the bowl to "stick" to lid.
I squeezed some water onto the lid.
I heard sizzling sounds.
i gave up. I went to bathe. After bathing, i tried using the wet cloth and took the bowl off.
A once, white, porcelain bowl turned brown as many brown stains stained the bowl. And due to high temperature, the bowl sort of melted and now the stains refused to come off even if i used strong cleaning agents and a metal scrub.
After 10mins. I took the kettle to the sink. I opened the lid.
NO water in the kettle.
Meaning, the 3/4 filled kettle most probably heated to dryness.
THank God, i return to a safe home. With no fire. ONly a very hot kitchen and hot stove.
I was so grateful to God, that He didnt burn my house down.
I was scrubbing the stove after dinner.
my roommate came back.
I told her about wat she done.
Her first reaction.
She was like huh? Did i boil water?
I told her that my house nearly burn down.
SHE laugh and laugh.
And tried to get her way through.
I was so annoyed. and pissed off.
I told her off. And she was saying" it alrdy happened. what can we do."
It just blew me off.
Im thinking of evicting her. She doesnt acknowledge her faults. Many times. She thinks that becos tat im achild, so she wont take me seriously. And im seriously annoyed to the max.
What if i came home late . What if the kettle just exploded due to too much overheating? ( abit exaggerated)
What if the coaster near the stove caught fire and burn my kitchen down?? ( the coaster was alrdy partially burnt to be exact. it was plain lucky that it didnt act as an conductor to spread fire)
it was so irresponsible of her.and Irresponsibility just happened to remind me of the 4 irritating persons, so all the more was i angered.
MY house could had been burn.
WHERE COULD I SLEEP???
IM LEAVING FOR 6 weeks and my mom is not home most of the time.
WHAT IF SUCH ACCIDENTS HAPPEN AGAIN!
SHe didnt even say sorry.
Fuck.
She did offerered to clean up the burnt kettle sprout.
and try to get the brown stains off the bowl.
Later, she tried to boil water AGAIN.
I noticed some weird sounds. The flame was weird. Green flames appeared. so i turn off the stove. she look surprised. she just came back from a phone call from my mum cos i think my mum urgently looking for her to return home too.
She claimed that i placed the stove wrongly. She try to adjust it, to find out, i did place it correctly.
AND THE DAMN STOVE PROBABLY MALFUNCTION COS OF OVERHEATING!!
Im waiting for my mother to come home tomorrow.
1 more day. And i cant even have peace.
this is seriously annoying me . not to the max. but over the max. thanks.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Was kind of feeling depressed aft chinese exam.
went into therapy mode.
i took a super long nap.
then woke up to finish a 90chapter manga.
its so freaking cool.
Its not the shoujo mangas where we go " ohhh i love you so and so." Or" take me in my hands Ahh~~~~~~~~~~"
Its the psychological manga. zomg. the logic is all too complicated.
but then , it is all about lying.
The manga was like havin this genius con artist who helped this girl to win this liar game.
And duh. the manga name is LIAR GAME
Round 1 : LGT company loan each person 100million yen as capital. Snatch the other person's 100million yen before 30days ( using any means) or you end up being stolen of 100million yen by your opponent. so you either end up with 100million yen profit or with a 100million yen debt since you had to return your initial 100million yen capital loan by the LGT office.
Lol. and the girl damn stupid. Never see the T & C of the post card the LGT office sent and foolishly opened the package and got herself landed up in this crazy Liar Game.
Its all about lying...
okok. nid to finish homework in stead of spazzing out over the genius con artist.
Saturday, November 07, 2009
Supposed to be studying.
Just give me 10mins of break.
1week countdown to shanghai trip. but i have lots of things undone.
camp food proposal.
not that there is much to be plan. but. i do.need.to.plan.
homework.
not.that.there.is.much.to.be.done.but.i.do.really.have.many.left.undone.
and urgh. i cant rmb how many and just how much presents/favours i nid to return.
im cringing at the thought of it.
ok.
next.
i cant believe im getting increasing jealous.
zomg.this is so.unusual.of.me.
where.has.the.monstrous.confidence.of.mine.disappeared.to.
im.getting.increasingly.insecure.
eew.its.making.me.look.damn.pathetic.
and.i.need.to.faster.grow.up.
so.i.wont.be.having.this.terrible.personality.of.mine.
and.yes.i.need.to.get.rid.of.it.out.of.my.mind.soon.
but.its.constantly.popping.out.here.and.there.
and its very irritating.
Its like telling you to stop smoking but yet a walking cigar is strolling down the streets and throwing its arms to you. then you begin to smoke. and right. after a few puffs, you began to cought. you sniff out the cigar.
then. you stop.
after a few minutes, another cigar comes strolling by.
your nicotine addiction gets up again.
How can you possibly get yourself out of this cycle? A alternative cigar - Nicotine chewing gums is not such an easy solution that can possibly solve this complicated problem.
sometimes i think its better if i just jump off the building.yes i know this is called a suicidal intent and im not thinking of jumping off buildings just cos i think im not slim enough.
sometimes i think, wat will happen if i jump down ----i will end up in a bloody mess on the ground.
and i even thought of a messless plan.
i can just jump off from the 4th floor of school, down in the lake, where there is lesser impact so my skull wont get crashed into half and let the brain juices cum blood flow everywhere. And its a double suicide, since i most probably will drown in the lake since i cant swim.
but then right, when i think of what will happen after i die, i just cringed and throw that thought away. i cant bear of being cremate under high temperature into ashes nor thrown under that pile of cold soil nor scatterred into polluted seas with no hot merman.
recently. i dont feel well.but i jolly know well i cant procrastinate to him becos i nid to get rid of this "depending on too much on others" attitude soon becos i know sooner or later, he will just leave me behind. 1 more year to go.
and im trying my very best. but its kind of hard.becos this years old habit had been stucked with me for like so long, and ever since this half of the year, i had been constantly abusing kindness and this right that im begining to feeel very pathetic myself....
argh. damn this insecurity.
ok.backto doing papers.
Friday, November 06, 2009
teehee.
pretty busy this week,
not in a current mood to write anything constructive, least i blow mine short fuse up and start to hurl very bad insults to certain ppl.
And its not very nice.
indeed.
Feeling kind of very angry, and i want to let off some steam now. But then i know if i blast this music now at late night, i think i will get sued by my neighbours.
But i always liked this song, always thought that it was very meaningful, especially for remainders to wars. And anyway, its mostly in english.DNA ni haritsuita ooikakusenu shoudou
michi he no KEY wo sashite ochi iku sei ni sousa wo
History repeating – panic and confusion
History is weeping – sense of disillusion
History repeating – pieces of a puzzle
Why can’t we just live as one?
Nowhere to run – we’re seeking redemption
No waiting for divine intervention
Search for the tree that overcomes death
Taking the fruit – discover a new way to breathe
History repeating – panic and confusion
History is weeping – sense of disillusion
History repeating – pieces of a puzzle
Why can’t we just live as one?
Nowhere to run – we’re seeking redemption
No waiting for divine intervention
Search for the tree that overcomes death
Taking the fruit – discover a new way to breathe
History repeating – science and perversion
History is weeping – weapons of destruction
History repeating – in our final hour
Why can’t we just live as one?
Nowhere to run, we’re seeking redemption
No waiting for divine intervention
Search for the tree that overcomes death
Taking the fruit – discover a new way to breathe
Saturday, October 31, 2009
OMG! I finished knitting todae. It is true that knitting is like swimming. Once you learn , you can never forget it. I didnt touch knitting for like at least half a year... And i only learn it last yr during my 2 week china trip.
The scarf is abit short, becos i think i knitted 2 extra stitches so it became wider.
Or maybe, the auntie cheated me of my wool.
Anyway. i learnt how to end the scarf by going to the net to learn how to cast off the stitches since i forget all about it since my aunt was the one who helped to cast off all my stitches when i learnt it in china. But then right, i didnt end it correctly at the very last part, becos i didnt understand the instructions. but i think i looks fineee!!! And anyway, there is a loop for me to hang it on those clothes hanger.
LOL.
okok. here is 2 photos which definitely doesnt do the scarf justice. when i bought the yarn, i wasnt thinking of making it for myself. The color was kinda unisex.
Been knitting a scarf from the afternoon. Its half way done. finally rained after a long long time. I love rainy evenings. Its like so cooling and nice. THe best part of the storm is that it has really cool and loud thunders. Gives me the thrillssss
ok. bought most of my shanghai trip's clothings.
Quite please.
todae i found out a super duper extracalista surprising fact.
my mom uses credit card. NOT ONE BUT TWO!!
Zomg. i always thought she was very ancient. since she never used nets, mastercard , cheque and we alway paid by cash...........
Then todae becos i forget to bring the cash out, she used the card.........
I was so shocked, atonished, appalled, surprised and pretty speechless.
She was saying how she already started using credit cards when my dad was alive...
WAT THE HELL!!! SHe kept things from me ah. The POSB silver card in her wallet was actually her credit card. I always thought its just a normal card that u use to withdraw money from ATM!!
ZOmg.................
Haiz.
Im so shocked.
NO wonder she always seem to get herself new clothes and new shoes.
Just yesterdae, she went to help me buy thermal wear. That was definitely an excuse.
She came back with a new pair of shoes with my thermal wear.
and no. The shoes are not a complimentary gift with the purchase.
Sheesh. Todae she complained that the jacket we bought was super expensive. Yes, its very costly. 169 dollars before 20% discount.
But HER NEWLY BOUGHT CLOTHES AND SHOES FOR THE LAST 2 MONTHS ARE DEFINITELY MORE THAN THAT!
And we go back to the discussion of who is the breadwinner of the family.
SHEESH!!!
ok. todae spend quite abit of dough..... Its kind of the most amount of money i spend on my clothes this year.
I took the chance to grab a small backpack and well. hmm.er. new new new apparels that are not worn on the outside.
I was so shocked. The woman was so meannnn
She see me, then pull me to the beginner section...
T_T T_T T_T
I felt so insulted and well. VERY ANGRY!!
As i try not to put it very explicitly that i have overgrown those beginner ones, she cant seem to get the hint for a while........................................................
Sheesh.. So annoying. Never mind, i came back in truimph after all.....................
Ok. i managed to rip my mother off quite a bit.
Managed to get a new pair of jeans ( but not skinny skinny very tight skinny fit, becos the cutting at the end of the legs is not wide enough to squeeze in another layer of thermal wear.) BUT RIGHT!! I still managed to buy skinny fit inthe end.
Okae. i think i know one reason why im obssessed with the mirror when i wear skinny skinny fit jeans.
I just feel good.
Very good.
LOl. Okae. I nid to maintain my image and be humble.
Anyway i need to thank Guides for my skinny skinny fit jeans.
Used to have even more flabby tighs and legs. I got so disgusted.
Until we start to do push up, squats and rounds round "goodness know where"
i feel that im becoming more fit and healthy. managed to excel each year in my 2.4km run for NAPFA and overcome my back problem.
haizzzzzzzz. I only wish, i dont get An A for everything in life. Just As in studies will do.
THank you,
Im feeling very depressed now.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Kenny really rocks to the max. She havent lost her touch of sacrasm and her sense of humor. kind of misses her........... KENNY LETS GO KTV NEXT TIME !! I WANT TO SING!!! ( i dont get why Bouncy gets to hold a concert, while a rather proficent singer like me doesnt .... )
Meanwhiile, while i dont get the chinglish joke, i do get the joke that Anna is rather responsive to kenny's comment. Cant make out what a word she says. There is probably an error in sentence structure. Or mebbe, a mised out punctuation? Was it a comma aft the word " wat?" Becos, it really changed the meaning of the sentence. Ahhhh. kids, correct punctuation is very important. Reminds me of Bottom's mistake in Midsummer night's dream.
Makes me feel ashamed that half of my name is identical is hers. Sigh. Brings the standard down dramatically.
Next. Today i got my report book back.
Yup. I think my total score drop. 644/900. A drop of 0.1marks. Same percentage...
Ok. Im not back yet to my normal standards. Need to start bucking up.
class position :15/41 ( increased by 1 . Ha ~ ha....)
Level position : 45/441 ( increased by 7??" Ha~ Ha... Means i didnt improve, but other ppl's position drop....)
Very self explainatory that my class standards are super high....
And since im in the mid of my class... It just plain shows.... that my class ppl on average, the elitist are on a different level from me.....
Haiz~~~
L1R5 is 9. Not good enough for O levels. Shall be aiming for 6.
Ok. This time results not say very good. Its all borderline grades?
Eng - b4, HCL - A2, Amaths - A2, Emaths - A1, Chem - A1, Bio- A1, Physics - B3, Combined Humanities- A2, Lit - A2,
Sheesh. I swear if i didnt miss out that 10mark qns for Bio, I would had not gotten 74/100 for BIO EOY, and get a A1 for BIO on the dot!!
I felt very sad.
A Sense of hopeless and a
Sense of belonging
to a category of idiotic and careless ppl engulf me and is replete in my mind. ( Trying to sound poetic.~~~ ) Cos many ppl did get A1 for BIO EOY. Same thing for Chem, i made alot alot of careless mistakes and gotten a borderline A1 for EOY and combined....
Lit was a pleasant surprise. I didnt knew i make it to A2 on the spot. Becos normal assignments, i get a B3, and EOy, i missed a2 by 0.5.( all becos Mr ahamad refused to give a half mark !! HELLO???? 16.5/25???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????)
Its kinda weird that My L1r5 for midyear was 11, end of year was 9.
Ok. Shall not brood on such weird numbers again. I took 1 hr to explain to my roommate as we discuss and make comments on the report book.
In my family, its the reverse. While AMd's dad can scold her in MYE for just dropping level position by 1, my mother will murder me if the teacher's comments are bad.
She doesnt give hoots to the Grades. She only paid attention to the teacher's comment. SHe even gets ppl to translate it...
And yes. She will always comment i have dual personality. The comments are unbelieveable.
This year 's comments are " Humble student who perseveres to do her personal best. NOt easily discourage by setbacks, possessed strong determination. Cheerful disposition, responsive to giving and receiving ideas. Not afraid to speak her mind, takes initiatice to seek clarifications, express herself confidently, demonstrates passion for learning, takes initiative to read beyond what is given, makes uses of time efficiently, priorities her task, helpful student .
HAS EMPATHY FOR OTHERS, AND IS CONSIDERATE!!"
Hah. The last line was the ultimate. as i look at it, i try to remember when do i feel empathy for others. I laugh at disasters, laugh at ppl's failures. And even ~ teehee( staged shows to see, cos i was too bored. ) Let me see, when did i empathise. Hmm. Perhaps raising 9 dollars for the sch walkathon card was pretty empathising for our sch's pitiful state.
On the other hand, i purposely translate to my roommate the full meaning of empathy. She took it that i was trying to paint a good character of myself. Sheesh. Im already good enough without false translations.
"Empathy is on a higher level than sympathy"
Ok. Prioritise my task? I just handed in my overdue emaths assignment todae. ( overdue by about a month)
And i have no need to wake up virtually most mornings at 3plus to finish homework..... Or to study Most subjects the day before the Exams. Well. Mebbe( here comes another punch from huixian) it really shows i do know how to prioritise . I study for the exam that is coming up the day before. LOL
Nope, im not trying to show how good my results are, by probably typing out for so long, but to show you that compared to my class, my results are not satisfactory, and once the PRCs master english, im going to be way behind them.
Ok. Next.
Today finally rained. bought back iced canned coffee and salt and vinegar flavoured chips.
was so happy that cold storage are selling it now, since last time, i rmbed that its kind of hard to find. Vague memories of Xie Zhe Yuan bringing it for some party ( teachers or children?) in primary ( 5 or 6?) was my first tasting of that exotic chips.
the strong smell of vinegar was like so nice.........................
I love vinegaR!!! Especially apple vinegar.
I propose everyone shld buy apple vinegar so that the demand of it rises and therefore the supply will increase and cause the price of it to drop.